Going to hell...

You know the cool thing about being 38? You know beyond a shadow of a doubt that the thing you are considering doing is wrong, and bad and will get you in trouble. Oh sure, you're probably still going to to it but there's none of that "hmmmmm. Maybe I can do this thing and have it actually work out in a way that is not awful and dramatic and sad-making!" Although, now that I think about it, that's also kind of the sucky thing about being 38.