Coupla things that are different this time around...

-- I'm getting better at asking for stuff (aka delivering suggestions of a "So, you wanna make my toes curl...?" kind of nature.)
-- I'm getting better about not pushing everything and everyone around so I can spend time with the new person thereby ignoring key factors in my life like SLEEP
-- I'm getting better at starting the "So, what are your thoughts about non-monogamy" conversation.
Can't say for sure if any of it is going to pan out in an ultimately positive way but it feels good right now... :-]

I love Lyle Lovett. (the boy's not so bad either. ;-])

Brillance!

So far, I've gotten to see TWO shows starring (well, featuring along with an ensemble cast) my own baby-babies! Yesterday was Boo's end of camp show at AcroSports which was GRAND (and which I get to look forward to every single Friday for the next seven weeks!) then Spark's kid-care had their annual family get-together/graduation/picnic Show wherein all the kids get dressed up in the world's cutest costumes and dance around! I know! Pretty scarily adorable. PLUS, I got to see Ms. Bee even before tomorrow when we're over there hanging with their sprouts onna counta she and the big girl are pals with one of the little ladies who goes to Spark's school and who is graduating this year... Yeah. Super mondo cool. Awwww. My babies are right now in the livingroom falling over each other and giggling. I think I may die of the nice happiness of it all. (of course, that will involve me overlooking the fact that they are playing instead of EATING thier supper but whatever. You only bond with your sister once, right...?) :-]

I confused my feelings with the truth...

because i like the view...! here at the Chick house we've been watching High School Musical non-stop for the better part of three weeks straight -- which means there are key songs BURNED into my brain that will no doubt remain thee for the rest of my waking life. Ah well. could be worse. Could be Grease.

Yay. who had the BEST little get together yesterday with her BBQ, her new boy and BBQ's gal? Me! Although, I did start to feel a little bad for the BBQ-G and NB right around 11:30 when it suddenly became the "Schlink and Waddle Show" -- man, I just really realized how very much I heart my BBQ is all. (And I'm beginning to understand why it is we took all those roadtrips by ourselves... not alot of room for anyone else to chime when you're living in the middle of the ultimate mutual appreciation society! :-])

Especially nice was the boy sticking around to further explicate some "issues" that had been brought up earlier via e-mail involving the theory of relativity (the relative proximity of his mouth to my neck that is! Badum bump!) {Sigh} I'm quite the little happy camper these days! except for work which sucks. I'm going on the roadtrip in T minus seven days though so i'm sure it will be just what the doctor ordered in terms of gaining some "critical distance" meaning making it so I don't have to quit in a huff... :-]

My goodness!

Whose cup runneth over?? Mine, that's who! So, first let me say a huge THANK YOU to the Bee family for graciously watching the sprouts on incredibly short notice so that me and the boy could go to the grown-up dinner party hosted be the always delightful BBQ. (Huge fun, BTW. great food, fabulous friends, lovely setting... all round fan-ta-bu-lous time had by all or at least by the both that I'm initimately acquainted with.) I'm getting so excited about this whole "life-with-grown-up-interaction" thing I hardly know what to do with it but at least for now it appears to be working out. Seeing boy tonight which will be fab and which will no doubt feature kissing then again on Friday in a mini-group setting (which I'll go ahead and assume will mean less kissing although I hate to have that carved in stone ;-])and AGAIN on Monday eve when we go see Lyle! {sigh. happy me.} Work = still stupid but my goodness, the rest of the life jsut really seems to be making up for it in spades!

Happy Birthday, BTW

to my beautiful 16 year old niece! I'd love to say she's a chip off the ole block but I'm not nearly as cool as she is so.... Good going getting all grown up and stuff! I love you!

Go Ravens!

Eek. My mom just called to let me know that the very week-end I'm going to be back in Alby-Turkey my high school graduating class (1986 in da house! whattup -- Woo Woo!) will be having it's 20 year reunion. I honestly do not know whether or not the occassion would be edifying or scary beyond belief. Possibly both.

20 freaking years. Christ....

I hate my job. Actually that's not entirely correct. i hate my company's screwed up priorities.

Bunch of stuff

First, today sucked. BUT the last few days have actually been grand! (So long as you overlook the "sucky best-friend" part where I forgot BBQ's birthday. Doh! Happy Birthday, Baby! I {heart} you like nobuddies bid-ness! Hope the coming year is filled with everything that is awesome! Eh, hem. Now then...)

Had lunch yesterday with the almost illegally handsome IHOEL and his newly healing self. Also, accompanying us to aforementioned lunch was dear, sweet Traveling Man so suffice to say I had the lion's share of attractive young gentlemen quotient assembled at single lunch meaning i was not only the envy of all my peers, I was also probably the envy of my parent's generation as well!

Work, i'm not going to discuss right now because it's stupid BUT it does serve to highlight the genius that is my life outside of that particular institution so it can stay. (Plus, it pays all the bills that the sexwork doesn't cover!)

the boy is great. He is nice and cute and REALLY VERY TALENTED if you know what I mean {wink, wink} and a whole lot of fun to kiss. Plus he still seems to like me AND he's not gotten boring so... all-in-all a good thing!

{sigh} alrighty, i need to go see a few little girls about some sup-sup so I'll be wrapping up. Hope everyone had a fabulous fourth! Kisses! {mwah, mwah}

You know the big kid's playground in Golden Gate Park

Now imagine it's GONE! That's right folks. The whole damn thing. And I am not losing my mind. Mr. L-L and the Lovely K were there as well and they can corroborate the lack thereof. Weird. but nicely cuing a whole bunch of other wierdness that was the day. Not horrible wierdness just off-center, stuff not working out the way it probably was supposed to on top of the near-thriller movie psychotic-ness that was trying to shop for groceries today, post-non-playground experience. man. {shakes head} just a weird day.

seriously...!

Me and the kid sitting in my room. Her on my bed watching me type. Me typing.

Kid: O.K we're going to play a game where I tap on two things and you tell me which is which.
Kid: [tap]
Kid: [tap]
Me: That sounded painful!
Kid: O.K. the painful is Mrs. Pepper and the other one is Mr. Salt.
Kid: Theme music?
Me: Of course!
Kid: Da don data da dan dan don da dunt [tap]
Me: Was that a tap??
Kid: I can't tell you my friend!
Me: Uh, Mr. Salt?
Kid: O.K.!

and so on and so forth until we reach ten taps and she tells me how many I got right out out ten...

The next game we're going to play is called "If you are a potoato chip" -- there's a whole set of songs that go along with that one as well.

How much do I love my kid?????

Pretty close to perfect...

I am just having the best coupla days. Went to visit IHOEL and found him to be in fine (medicated) spirits so that made me happy. Then last night I went with my new boyfriend to meet his best friend and her people for a dinner-type deal-ie and found the whole freaking lot of them to be just charming! It was really nice to get to see the NB interacting with someone besides me onna counta he's still kinda shy around me -- he's very sweet and comfortable and apparently highly-regarded with his peeps though so that was cool. Plus, the beautiful and accomodating Abby-Tail agree to kid-sit for me so I could go to this little shindig so she was on hand to meet/size up the boy in question and she just called to give me the ole thumbs up! Yay! (Again, nice that the things that she seemed to feel were cool about him were kinda the same things I'm fixated on so... and no she didn't come to these conclusions based on a three second intro. He actually gave her a ride to BART after dropping me off at the house -- although given the amount of "sahring" those two seem to have accomplished, I think he may have driven her all the way home!) K. then today, nice relaxed day. Kid had class. She is doing brillantly although she's getting burned out on Cap. I told her she could take a breather for the month of July then she had to re-start in August and we would discuss at the end of the summer whether or not she "has" to continue. Obviously I think she'd be great and that she could get a lot out of it but at the same time I'm just not gonna be the mom to tell her she has to do something she hates for the rest of her life just to make me happy. She's given it three months (which was the original agreement) and she promised to give it another shot in August so... i think she'll pick it back up. We'll see.

After we got home I put extentions in her hair so now she's got a ponytail down to her butt. Very cute. OH! And I got The Electric Company on DVD!!!!! So we've been watching that for hours on end.... Tomorrow going to hang with Mr. Lovah-Lovah in the park then Monday some "working from home" then out for a drive. Tuesday, lose the big girl to the CP and visit from NB. Sum total = a heck of a lot better than it was looking Friday afternoon so I'm not complainin'. :-]

Good thoughts...

Darling, sweet wonderful, IHOEL is having surgery today. All the the best wishes, Hon', with regards to the actual operation, the follow-up lying around with nothing to do for days on end and most especially with the (prefereably extremely rapid) recovery! Shout-outs and supportive wishes to the little Missus as well since she'll be doing all the heavy lifting for the next several weeks. ;-] Let me know if I can be of any help at any time and I am sooooo there!

Where to begin?

Let's see...

Pride week-end was fun. we ended up going to the TransMarch which was nice because it reminded me of what the Dyke march used to be like (small and alternative with tons of cute people running around making eyes at each other) I mean, it was a little "angry" but whatever. I gather what with recent events in New York and with past issues with the Michigan Women's Music Fest there were some very pertinent reasons to be mad. Since I am actively trying to return my pink satin Dyke Jacket, I felt it best to skip the dyke march (going instead to Fremont where I slipped almost immediately into a very nice boy's bed -- a move that was facilitated by the always amazing Bee family and for which I shall be eternally grateful!) then it was the parade on Sunday where my kid got to do her acrobat tricks (with the aid of the wonderful GV bookbuyer) in front of the adoring crowd so that was cool. Incredibly tiring though. all that walking plus pulling the wagon, plus carrying the little big girl.... whew! Still and all though a good time was had by most.

In other news received in the mail today two sets of tickets -- the first being to go see the Dixie Chicks (!!) which I cannot EVEN stand the coolness of and to which I will be taking my loverly BBQ (Yes!!) and the second being to one Mr. Lyle Lovett and further to a show I hadn't even heard about yet (!!) Can I just say, I heart my friends. I really don't know what I did to deserve you people (oh wait, now I remember -- I put up with your CRAP for the better part of two years!) but hearts and kisses to you all! {mwah, mwah!}

You know what makes long hair really messy/tangled?

S-E-X that's what!! Well, pre-sex. sexual activity let's say... And with the new boy, no less! Yay. Chick = happy camper. :-]

(now who's going to take my kids for a coupla hours some Saturday so I can go "seal the deal" as it were??? Anyone...?)

From feast to famine to...WTF??!

{sigh} So, officially I like Tall Guy (good kisser, sweet as all get out and coming over again on Monday! Yay!)

Then, tomorrow night I am going to a wedding between old friends which my Sweet Pretty Boy will also be attending (which, in fact, he flew back from Ireland to attend) and while I admit, I've been sort of assuming we would do some sort of something around the time of that particular event, not having heard from him all these weeks kind of made me re-think the probablility. Until fifteen seconds ago when i checked my VM and saw that I had a really very nice message from him that I could easily parlay into... well, other stuff.

THEN I just heard through the grapevine that Ole Green Eyes is back from his sabaticle and will be returning to work on... that's right... Monday. (I thought he was back mid-July or something) Not that that means anything since I've certainly not heard from him during his time on the road. Just that I got an unpleasant jolt -- that tingle of imminent crush-i-ness when I heard the news and that does not bode well for how well I'm going to hold up once he's re-entered the building...

Now, let me take a moment to stress that I am emphatically NOT complaining! I'm just... a little overwhelmed/scared/uncertain about what I'm doing in all of this is all.

help? anyone...?

Boy can sooooo stay...!

So... who, upon complaining about her cold ad nauseum via e-mail last night got an impromptu visit from a cute, tall boy bearing chicken soup, tissues, some sort of weird German wheat beer and cough lozenges? Me! that's who. :-](I got kisses too --FINALLY -- which was also v. nice!!)

Dammit!

I just read a study that basically said that this whole missing my kid thing is NEVER going to get better! Apparently you go through three stages when you're separated from "a loved one." First, there's a sort of constant disappoinment every time you encounter something that makes you remember them, then because you're body isn't really equipped to deal with continually being shocked, you move into the "missing" phase where there's an acceptance that they're gone but you're still sad about it, then, lastly there's a "detachment phase" where you acept that thy're gone and you don't miss them so much because you've structured your life in a way that doesn't depend on them being around. So, get this. When you're sharing kids it's apparently harder to get to the detachment phase because there are constant reminders of their presence and also because biologically we're sort of programmed to not be able to detatch from the people we've been caregivers for (hence the empty nest syndrome) and also, on some level because some of us just are incapable of compartmentalizing our babies and so, viola! you end up in a constant state of phase 2 missing and the thing about phase 2 is it doesn't get easier. Ever.

Stupid study.

Crap.

Where to begin...?

My goodness! So much to write about and so little time! First, how cool is BBQ's new house?? Very that's how! Congratulations, hon, on getting out/your cool new digs/your beautiful courtyard where I'm POSITIVE I will be invited very soon to partake of mimosas whilst staring up at the clear summer eve. :-]

Nextly, Chicago was grand! Sorry I was incommunicato, for some reason the hotel I was staying in decided I was not allowed to blog (although, strangely enough, I could get to just about anywhere else on the world wide web...) but regardless, I love that city! (and not just because I found the coolest grey corduroy pants in a thrift store out there that are EXACTLY like the ones I wanted in the 10th grade that my mom wouldn't get me because she said they were "impractical" -- whatever that means -- now all I have to find is the fluffy pink sweater that the girl in the issue of Seventeen that I was trying to match was wearing and my life will finally be PERFECT!)

OH! ran into super sweet gals-who-used-to-live-in-front-of-us at bagels on Sat. pre-Scoot class so that was nice. Quality individuals, really (although, kind of have to say one of them is really quality {wink, wink, grin} the other... she's aight... :-]

And lastly, went on a date with a nice boy. Really. I know, I'm not sure what to do with that information either but I do know that for the first time in forever I'm actually going to watch and see what happens instead of developing my own bizarre theories, overanalyzing ever phrase/action into the freaking ground and then deciding that it's not worth the trouble. See, that was kind of a grown up thing to write, huh? Thanks to the Bees for helping to support this new way of existing. I'm pretty sure I'd be a mess right now without their post-date support/triage! Seriously, I may have to put you guys on the payroll...

Fingers crossed...

Yay! Who had the best coupla dates with my Bee-D pals yesterday?? Moi that's who!

Speaking of dating -- quick update vis a vis all of that...

I am FINALLY at the end of my sojourn into the wide (rapidly narrowing) world of menfolks. Unfortunately, the final tally doesn't look so good:

Contact made = 8

Contact continued up until at least one face-to-face meeting = 4

Contact continued through multiple meetings = 2

Currently still in contact with = 2 (although not the same two mentioned above)

Times actually kissed by prospects = 0

Somewhat promising peeps who completely dropped off the face of the earth = 2

So, I'm finally nearing the end. I have one more person that I'm talking/writing to but who I've yet to see up close. I'm going to Chicago next week so probably seeing won't happen until I get back but after that, it's done. (Not sure what I'm going to try next since dating girls didn't work out and dating boys doesn't seem to be... Maybe I turn to a life of spiritually-focused celibacy?)